How you doing?

Every now and then when I'm having a crappy day or a crappy week (of late crappy weeks) and someone ask how are you doing I would really like to offload on them and wait for their reaction. I think the next time someone ask me that question I will respond as follows:

Well, I got layed off, I just got a notice from my bankers, my car and mortgage payments are way overdue. They're going to seize my car and foreclose on my house. My jabal is pregnant, my wife is leaving me and taking the children, oh and she told me that I'm not the father of the children. Can you believe that? I've raised these children for all these years and now she tells me that. The Bitch! She leaving me for the children father.

I wonder what the response would be like to that sob story. Would they give me a shoulder to cry on, help me get a job, help with a couple loan payments. It's just one of those things we do that I question every now and then, it's just a pleasantry, small talk. Would anyone really care, or be in a position to do anything about how you're doing?

Suffice to say, my life is not a hot mess like that scenario, but sometimes I have crappy days. I need to stop lying to people about how am doing though. Today, I feel crappy, depressed, emotionally and mentally drained. I feel like I could run away to parts unknown, just hop in my car and drive anywhere and nowhere, alas I don't have my car today so I feel trapped. Walking anywhere is not a viable option, reports may reach people I love that I'm freaking out and walking in the hot sun, although the way my head feels now, I feel like I'm freaking out.

Wake me when November ends!