This November feels like the longest on record, not that it is, same number of days same number of hours, but when things seem to be crumbling around you twenty-four hours just seems a bit longer than normal. I've had an emotional roller-coaster of a month. Eighteen days through the month and I dread what is left in store for the next twelve. Every time I think I make progress, something happens to drag my mind, my emotions back to that negative space. While I am on the subject of emotions, yes I am a very emotional person, but, emotions swing two ways, negative and positive, more often than not my negative surpasses my positive. It's easy for my heart to follow where my mind goes - my mind is the rule of everything.
It's been a chain reaction, spill over effect kind month. like catching water with a strainer - everything just falls through. One step forward two steps back. I need to hit the reset button. I'm in a funk, a heavy funk, and this is not the best time for a funk. Perhaps I need a distraction, or a temporary alternative point of focus, this is so not the right time for this, then again when is. Everything seems to be going south post haste. Sigh! Monday 18th November, November 2013, it ranks right up there with my low points in my life.
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