From early on yesterday I knew I would not make it to the Machinery today. There is something about days starting with M that induce an oh gosh why today feeling - with a bit of really, do I have to. Some would say I should be grateful that I am part of the Machinery; that there are people who wish they were in my shoes (these people rarely ever are aware of the journey of the feet and the shoes) - and while I am thankful for it's contribution to the attainment of my basic necessities, I am not overflowing with gratitude.
When you get to the point where you don't look forward to going to the Machinery at all, but you do by default, unwillingly - it is tantamount to mental, emotional and in extreme cases physical torture.
We have been socialised to be accepting of mediocrity - you hear it so often; it is better to have half a loaf than none at all, well I'll tell you what, I want the whole damn loaf and even the bakery. There is nothing wrong with wanting more or better, and if it doesn't come today you work at it until you do get what you want. Better must come.
But on this particular day starting with M, sitting here across my chair in my towel, legs crossed at the ankles hanging over the arm rest , blogging away on my Blackberry - today will not be one of these days of dread. I will uncluter my mind a bit today and attend to the Machinery from the palm of my hand if I so desire. Today on this day starting with M I will have a very good day.
When you get to the point where you don't look forward to going to the Machinery at all, but you do by default, unwillingly - it is tantamount to mental, emotional and in extreme cases physical torture.
We have been socialised to be accepting of mediocrity - you hear it so often; it is better to have half a loaf than none at all, well I'll tell you what, I want the whole damn loaf and even the bakery. There is nothing wrong with wanting more or better, and if it doesn't come today you work at it until you do get what you want. Better must come.
But on this particular day starting with M, sitting here across my chair in my towel, legs crossed at the ankles hanging over the arm rest , blogging away on my Blackberry - today will not be one of these days of dread. I will uncluter my mind a bit today and attend to the Machinery from the palm of my hand if I so desire. Today on this day starting with M I will have a very good day.
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