Sleep Interrupted - 5:20am

I tossed and turned in my bed for a bit
The images so vivid I silently shrieked
It's darkest before the dawn
The dawn must be near
This dream I had it brought me some fear

I screamed, shouted and cursed them away
The agony of the past lingered and stayed
What must I do, do I stop being me
The voice on the other end filled with pain and despair
Reaching the point that no longer cared

I could hear the pounding of the surf through the line
Briefly wishing I could travel through time
Stop the pain, rewinding each hand
Could I make that promise, not do this again
My thoughts so conflicted, with pleasure and pain
I pushed her to far for her to remain

I want her, I need her to be in my life
These battles I fight, they're all for my wife
Who I am is not what she wants
She asked me to change, I said that I can't
One more time I hear the surf pound at the shore
Her voice fades with the sound
We can't do this no more

The line goes dead, the phone in my hand
I open my eyes, awake from this dream
Happy that's all it was
And not the real thing