It is what it is

Time runs slowly tonight down your cheeks
Into a pool of regrets and sadness, soaking your sheets
When did this happen, how?
Warmth never felt so cold, a heart never beat so slow, feel so heavy
How did it get to this?
Melancholic consequences of inaction, bravado, misguided, mis-guarded
Indeed, pride comes before the fall
When did you fall, so deeply?
Couldn't catch yourself falling down the path you laid before you
Stumbling over the wall you so carefully built
Did you succeed in keeping anything out; or did you keep it in?
Does the wall feel safe still; has it kept out that which you most abhor?
What we dread often finds it way to our doors, beating it down forcefully
Till we accept that it is what it is, what it is is a feeling over which we have no control
Is this how you planned it; is this what you wanted?

Down low

I feel a bit down today - not even sure why; I think it's partly because of this message from Sofie this morning - it kinda upset me. I may be over reacting here but the tone of the message just did not sit well with me. Perhaps there are other underlying factors; like insufficent sleeo, don't know cant't really put my finger on it - but I think mainly it's because of that message or how I perceived it; it came of a bit dismissive, when I honestly did not feel what I said prior warranted the tone of the message. Oh well such is life...right now I feel like being home in my bed just wallowing...probably had it not been for the fact that J is at school; home is exactly where I would be right now.

Lent vs Carnival...

I had mentally penned a rant about the latest and most preposterous notion that carnival should be moved back to it's pre-lent time in any effort to make the faithful be more aware, and some how bring about respect for the observance of the lentan period; but my aoringal train of thought had since been derailed; but I am still sufficiently incense by the proposition that I feel incline to document my outrage. I have a few succinct and choiced words for the proponents of this notion/discussion; fucking poppycock, bullshit, hogwash, fokry - and in the local palance shate.

The idea that lent and carnival are ostensibly appendages is to say the least not logical not remotely grounded in reason. What to me makes more sense - I would like to think from a reasonable perspective (being mine) that if you are one of the faithful - fervent in your catholic of religious belief, you would not require the end of what many have deemed a pagan celebration to usher in or remind you of this most holy a repentful period - a pillar of your faith. To say that premise is asinine would to me be an under statement.

Further to add insult to injury (and the foolishness of this argument continues); is the demand by the faithful and self proclaimed christians that people (in a secular society) respect the lentan celebration. Hold on, has any one disrespected lent, has anyone said do not celebrate lent or move lent - what de ass. So what of respecting the people who do not observe lent; what of the non-believers - carnival was moved, what de ass; you'll to godly to care about the bachannal, why you'll want it closer to you'll holidom.

I think it's time people start exercise their grey matter, stop talking and repeating shit and above all else truly start to respect people right to be individuals and not conform blindly to dogma. I don't bother you when you eating your fish and praying - leave me alone when I drinking my rum and wining...Amen!