Can't always get what you want

It's 5am and I'm seated at this damn computer - I've been up wide eyed but not bushy tailed for maybe an hour, my thoughts won't allow me to rest. My eyes burn, my head hurts, but sleep has abandoned my on the shores of consciousness. Why? Sofie said I had a type A personality, which means I have a tendency to stress about things - that would not be my view about myself, then again I have long since learnt that I'm still learning about myself as the time passes by.

We recently acquired a piece of land, we're thinking about building sooner rather than later given the steady increases in the price of materials. The thought of building is a bit more daunting than I had anticipated, I did not anticipate it to consume my mind - more specifically the cost, can we afford it. Can we afford comfortably the monthly repairs for the house we want and still maintain our current lifestyle? I realized a couple years ago that I can afford a lot more than I thought I could, and I told myself never second guess yourself about going after what you want, however I have not always been able to do as I say. A real pain in the ass. Then there is the less important thought not allowing me rest of repairing the damages to my vehicle, which was caused by an absent minded driver on Friday. I'm less concerned about the cost of the repairs than I am about the inconvenience it will cause me.

And the more minor thoughts kept coming, what the plan for work, the gym, the weekend, the week. The thoughts just kept coming. All I want to do is sleep, at this point it is too late for that - I have resigned myself to finding some entertainment until the rest of the house wakes.