N.A.S.A. - Not Always Sure about Anything

What do you muse about when you are no longer angry, sad, miserable, depressed. When you find yourself in that space between the dark and the light - all grey. What do you have to say - you've said everything there is to say; or have you.

My musings have changed from a mere two and a half months ago and I sometimes miss the darker side - the rancour, the melancholy, my paralyzing neurosis, my funk. But I do not miss the emotions synonymous with these musings, but one can not exist without the other. A good friend said to me my darker musings are evidence that I bleed; and damn did my blood flow over the last few months - I almost went into shock from the hemorrhaging. Am I happy - I am not sure, perhaps more unsure of how my happiness is defined. But, I can say un-equivocally, I am in a better space than a few short months ago. I am in a good space. Getting to this space, this grey area, was interesting to say the least. It is a journey I do not intend to repeat.

The space between where I was and where I could be is what keeps me moving forward; leaving the past in the dark and racing towards the light.

I am not sure what this light will bring, but anything is better than the solitude of darkness. And if darkness is ever to return, I know now how to find the light.