True Blood

I dreamt of an epic battle between vampires and werewolves last night. In my dream the centuries long war came down to one decisive battle - I was a vampire; me and my kind were powerful but out numbered and out strategized. The odds seemed stacked against us - ah, by now you see a familiar theme - fierce battle where I am the good bad guy and the odds are against me. It's been a while since I've had one of those dreams, and last night I'm not sure that I can attribute my dream to a resurgence of that perpetual war being waged in the recesses of my cerebral; or whether its was a sub-conscious dramatization of Sofie watching freaking "True Blood". Oh well!!!

True Blood or not I dreamt - and it was not an unfamiliar scene. I'm always fighting my demons, sometimes they win, sometimes I do - the war never ends.

Ambivalence

My heart bleeds but a minute at your sight

Tears come to the surface, but they won't fall

I feel for a second, but empathize for less

Wonder for a moment, how did this happen

What are your regrets

Then I dismiss all thought, all feeling

Till when next we cross paths

Private Dancer

I see you looking at me
Look at me, what do you see
Your eyes caress my every curve
You take in my every blemish, tattoo, piercing

I see you looking at me
Look at me, what do you see
Brown skin beauty, body just right
Bold, confident, sex pot, little me

I see you looking at me
Look at me, what do you see
Flexible, talented, strong, vivacious, me

I see you looking at me
Look at me, go on tell me what you see
Desirable vixen being all I can be
The object of your fantasy
Tell me is that what you see

I see you looking at me
Look at me, but you don't see me
This is not who I want to be
Your weekend entertainment
Exposing some of me

I see you looking at me
Look at me, let me tell you what to see
Long days and lonely nights
All the hardships endured in my life

I see you looking at me
Look at me, I'll show you more of me
Liquid courage, it's not confidence you see
This is not strength, it's the fear you don't see

Go ahead, look at me
Tell me what you see
Do you see my pain, my loneliness, my strife
The bitterness and emptiness I bury down inside
Look at me, look at me, see the misery of my life

I see you looking at me
Look at me, what do you see
Do you see stripper, dancer, a lady of the night
Do you see mother, daughter, some man's wife

I see you looking at me
Look at me, what do you see
What you're watching is the illusion of me
I see you looking, keep looking
Would you want to be me?